...And roasted pumpkin seeds tomorrow! Yum!
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
...And roasted pumpkin seeds tomorrow! Yum!
Thursday, September 08, 2011
I asked family member to send in any funny stories or good memories that they wanted to share: Jacob had memories of "The Red-Headed Babe and The Pencil-Necked Geek," Alexa shared her appreciation for one-on-one time which included a glider ride over Mount Desert Island during peak colors one October, and Lee's email revealed of one of his lesser-known talents:
Here's a "card" that we want to share:
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Eden and Ezra are still finishing up their courses from the online school they did this last year. They are going to be going back to school downtown for this next year--it's called Saipan American Education Foundation (SAEF School). I went in to visit the other day to see what improvements they had made and I'm satisfied with what's going on there. I really like and respect the head teacher and a lady we know from church is going to be Eden's 6th grade teacher, so she was happy about that. Ezra was just called as Deacon's Quorum President last week. Eden found out that since her birthday is the same month they have Girl's Camp (August) she gets to go! My last Primary kid is on her way up!
Sam was thinking about going out to Utah to do his Assoc. of Lib. Arts at LDS Business College because they have one geared specifically to transfer into a 4 year degree, but he's decided to do this semester here and then think about transferring in December. He only has 21 credits right now and he would have to start as a new freshman, but if he has 24 he can go in as a transfer student, so since he's so close to that I think that's probably what he'll do.
Kaitlyn and I leave in just 3 days for the States! We're excited! Three of the boys from here just got back from attending EFY in Utah and had a great time. I think she's going to love it. The only part I don't love is that we'll be gone for a month and I miss Casey and the kids already. I love that I'm going to get to visit with the Browns and maybe get to see other friends while I'm there. I also get to attend Dickon's wedding at the Boston temple and their reception. I might go to my 35th (!!!) high school reunion even. The best thing of all is that I'll get to check up on all of my Stateside kids. It's going to be a good trip.
Thursday, July 07, 2011
As a result of your hard work and determination, you have excelled in your present studies at the Northern Marianas College. It gives me great pleasure to inform you that your name has been placed in the Part-Time Student Honor of outstanding students for having achieved a 4.00 grade point average (GPA) for the Spring Semester 2011. This honor will be printed on your permanent academic record....
...Congratulations and my hope is that you will continue along the path of excellence that you have chosen.
Barbara K. Merfalen
Dean of Academic Programs & Services
Oh what a difference [the right] two years can make. :)
Great job Sam! Keep it up!
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Here are some things I connected with in this book:
"Our natural desire to pray comes from Creation. We are made in the image of God. Our inability to pray comes from the Fall."
This reminded me that by nature I am divine--something I tend to forget--so I should be able to communicate with a divine being. Not just communicate, but relate--have a relationship. Maybe I'm trying to hard to pray "right" instead of to pray intuitively.
"You have true intimacy, based not on how good you are but on the goodness of Jesus."
Casey often reminds me of this--that the love that comes to us from God comes because of who He is, not who we are. "True intimacy" is something I think I want--I want to want it. Actually, I'm not sure I know what it is or what it involves.
"We don't learn to pray in isolation from the rest of our lives. For example, the more I love our youngest daughter, Emily, the more I pray for her. The reverse is true as well; the more I learn how to pray for her, the more I love her. Nor is faith isolated from prayer. The more my faith grows, the bolder my prayers get for Jill. (his wife) Then, the more my prayers for her are answered, the more my faith grows. Likewise, if I suffer, I learn how to pray. As I learn how to pray, I learn how to endure suffering. This intertwining applies to every aspect of the Christian life."
"...learning to pray is almost identical to maturing over a lifetime."
"Many Christians pray mechanically for God's kingdom (for missionaries, the church, and so on), but all the while their lives are wrapped up in their own kingdoms. You can't add God's kingdom as an overlay to your own."
"Adam and Eve began their quest for self-identity after the Fall. Only after they acted independently of God did they have a sense of a separate self. Because Jesus has no separate sense of self, he has no identity crisis, no angst. Consequently, he doesn't try to "find himself." He knows himself only in relationship with his Father."
Initially, this feels a little offensive. But when I think about it it feels true and right. He goes on to say,
"That's why contemplating the terror of the cross at Gethsemane was such an agony for Jesus. He had never experienced a moment when he wasn't in communion with his Father. Jesus' anguish is our normal."
That last statement really got me. Jesus' anguish at being separated from his Father--even briefly--could that have caused some of his agony? Of course, it did--he cried out for Him on the cross. How much does the pain of that separation affect us? It certainly affected Alma the Younger when it was brought to his attention. He said it was so awful that it made him tremble to think of anyone having to go through it. The sons of Mosiah risked their lives in order to go into the land of their enemies to try to bring them to God so they wouldn't have to go through what they had.
"When our kids were teenagers, Jill asked me, "Do you know what our family needs most?" Lots of things came to mind, including a newer car. Her one-word answer took me completely by surprise: "mercy." We didn't need to get more organized. We didn't need more money. We needed mercy."
I need mercy. Boy do I need mercy.
"A prayer life isn't simply a morning prayer time; it is about slipping into prayer at odd hours of the day, not because we are disciplined by because we are in touch with our own poverty of spirit, realizing that we can't even walk through a mall or our neighborhood without the help of the Spirit of Jesus."
I'm a covenant-breaker, but I want to be a covenant-keeper. The covenant I break the most often is most definitely the one I make at the sacrament table each week--"that they do always remember Him." Yet here I am--"That guy looks creepy." "She's got on some pretty sleazy looking clothes." Maybe I don't say it aloud, but I'm definitely not remembering Him.
"I make the jump from optimism to darkness so quickly because I am not grounded in a deep, abiding faith that God is in the matter, not matter what the matter is. I am looking for pleasant results, not deeper realities."
I so much need to give the word "blessing" a new definition--how about a blessing is something that comes from God and is designed especially for me with the intent to bring me closer to Him.
"Repentance brings the split personality together and thus restores integrity to the life. The real self is made public. When the proud person is humbled, the elevated self is united with the true self." and "When we remove our false selves, repentance creates integrity. We return to the real source of love--our heavenly Father. We become authentic."
Is repentance not merely a change of heart and mind, but an actual restoration of my true self?
"It (Judaism) survived attempts to exterminate it from Pharaoh (Moses), the Philistines (David), the Syrians (Elijah), the Babylonians (Daniel), the Persians (Esther), and the Samaritans (Ezra). It survived the Greeks during the time of the Maccabees, the Roman destruction of Jerusalem in AD 70, and the forced evacuation from Palestine in AD 135. It survived Islam, the Crusades, the Spanish Inquisition, the Russian tsars, and Hitler's Final Solution. But Orthodox Judaism has barely survived the Enlightenment. It is but a shadow of its past, claiming only 10 to 15 percent of Judaism."
"A thankful heart is constantly extending grace because it has received grace."
How often am I extended grace from the Lord and I refuse to receive it?
"Self-will closed the door to a spirit of prayer."
I'm always stumbling over that one. And the next highlight--
"The great struggle of my life is not trying to discern God's will; it is trying to discern and then disown my own."
I hear ya.
"The best gift of the desert is God's presence. We see this in Psalm 23. In the beginning of the psalm, the Shepherd is in front of me--"he leads me beside still waters" (verse 2); at the end he is behind me--"goodness and love will pursue me" (verse 6, NIV); but in the middle, as I go through "the valley of the shadow of death," he is next to me--"I will fear no evil, for you are with me" (verse 4). The protective love of the Shepherd gives me the courage to face the interior journey."
I read little story once of a guy who was sitting in a priesthood leadership meeting. The general authority who was conducting the meeting asked (probably in reference to D&C 18:10), "Brother Jones, what is the worth of a soul?" He was taken by surprise at being put on the spot and asked him to repeat the question. Finally, he said,"I suppose the worth of a soul lies in its ability to become like God." God has eternal life. He lives it and He has the ability to give it. To give life--in and of Himself. No wonder we are cherished, loved, protected, guided.
Recently we had the sister missionaries over for dinner and one of them talked about an article in which the author said that everything is stacked in our favor to triumph over this life. So everything must be stacked in my favor to be able to pray more meaningfully--to really communicate with Him. Knowing that--believing it--helps a lot.
"When we don't receive what we pray for or desire, it doesn't mean that God isn't acting on our behalf."
"The thought--Paul, I'm going to work on your character--had a similar impact on me as Jesus' words--"You will deny me three times" (Matthew 26:34)--had on Peter. After his fall, reflecting back on Jesus' warning would have brought Peter to a deeper repentance. It also gave Peter hope, possibly saving him from suicide. He could say, "Jesus knew this about me ahead of time, yet he loved me and prayed for me that I wouldn't despair." In my life, when suffering came the following year, that unexpected thought gave the suffering meaning and purpose. It gave me hope."
I really appreciated this reflection. In fact, reading it again makes me feel so thankful and increases my desire for my family to know this.
"We need the sharp-edged, absolute character of the Word and the intuitive, personal leading of the Spirit. The Word provides the structure, the vocabulary. The Spirit personalizes it to our life."
The "unspeakable gift of the Holy Ghost." Yes.
"Augustine recalled when he was a boy stealing unripe pears from his neighbor's orchard even though he had ripe pears on his side. Because Augustine had encountered the living God, he was able to see the irrational bent in his heart toward evil."
It is irrational. It doesn't bring happiness--it's against the nature of the beast to find happiness in doing wrong.
"By June, I realized that God didn't seem particularly interested in saving me from the difficult situation. He just wanted to change me."
Gasp. How often am I praying for things--in my life and the lives of those I love--to go against His will?
"Don't be truth-focused. The truth is that I need to love the other person."
I know that's more important than being right and I have a LOT of things to change.
"Just last week I'd prayed that my Father would show me what feeds a lack of faith in me. I was beginning to see that too much media was subtly framing how I viewed the world."
Introspection. I need a greater ability to understand what I really need to ask for. That's a prayer in and of itself.
I want to have a praying life--to "pray in all things." There are so many things this book has made me think about that I haven't written here. I can't write them because I feel them more than think them, but I believe He understands that kind of communication as well. I can do better. I can become closer to Him.
Saturday, June 25, 2011
He wanted to tell me that he had lost his wallet and had called the bank to stop all of our cards. Bad.
This will give me the opportunity I needed to adjust our personal account with the Quicken file that had become corrupted and get that all straightened out because very little money will come out of that account over the next few weeks. That's good!
The scale was down another pound. Two good things in a row!!
All of this happened as I was just getting up on June 24th, which was my 53rd birthday. Eh.
Ami called to wish me a happy birthday and I've lived to be 53. Very good!
The kids overslept, so they didn't get to bring me breakfast in bed. Bad.
They all got up before 7 a.m. without me being the alarm clock and I don't even like having to eat my breakfast in bed! Yay!
I got a late start to the gym. Bad.
I went to the gym. Good!
Lillian gave me the coolest beaded thing that can be used as a belt or necklace or tied however. Good again!
I have Lillian! Another good!
I made maple walnut ice cream, but I thought I didn't put enough walnuts in so I put in more and now there are too many walnuts in the ice cream. Kinda bad.
I love walnuts! Good!
The kids and I went out to dinner (Tony Roma's) and to a movie (Cars 2)where I ate too much and slept through some of the flick. Groan.
I really don't care that I ate too much and slept through the movie--it was fun to just be with the kids. Good!
I spoke with Casey several more times on the phone and got a call from each of the away kids except for Jake who I got to chat with online last night. Best in show.
It's all in how you look at it--and that's very, very good!
Sunday, June 19, 2011
"Senior discount, right?"
"No! Well...how old do you have to be for a senior?"
"Ummm..." (She knows she's in trouble now.) "Maybe 60?"
"What?! I'm not even close! Groan." (Okay, maybe that is a slight exaggeration.)
(Backpedaling as fast as possible.) "I think I got you mixed up with another lady. Same haircut...white....."
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Recently I've been wondering how much FB affects us as individuals. I'm sure it varies, but I don't know that I want to be shaped by FB on any level. Often it seems posts are competitive--seeking the approval of other people--"how many comments did I get?" We do that too much already without Facebook to encourage it.
In our day distractions are plentiful and insidious. I had a quote in my old scriptures that said "Don't get thickly involved in thin things; don't leave the things that matter most to the mercy of the things that matter least." Casey doesn't Facebook--never has. He says he doesn't have time for that and he doesn't want to get caught up in it. For me to be ruminating on it to this extent I figure that the Spirit has brought it to my attention. Maybe it's an important adjustment for me to make. Maybe it's a necessary step. Maybe it's an answer to prayer.
Definitely, for me, it's right.
Thursday, June 09, 2011
Well, not huge changes, but a little change. We have a 6 bedroom home--which sounds big--but the living room, dining room, and kitchen are all in an open floor plan. The living room is really just a seating area within that space and that seating area is small and hard to arrange (for me anyway). Anyway, I figured new curtains, new furniture arrangement... We all agree that it feels better. It's kind of interesting how furniture placement can make a room feel cozy or stark or can determine how much a room gets used.
Sunday, June 05, 2011
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Feelings like this make getting older sooo much more attractive. :)
Sunday, May 08, 2011
Eden made me a card which was presented to me at a Primary Mothers Breakfast on Saturday. Unfortunately, the Primary cards had been stacked before they were dry and Eden's had paper stuck to it. Crud. Fortunately, however, Eden decided to make a new card which I like better than the first one--especially the message inside. The first one said "Happy Mothers' Day" and then inside "I hope you have a great day! Eden." Nice enough, but just a tad impersonal.
Here's the new card and on the inside, in cheery yellow, it says "You're the best mom of all moms because you're my mom! Love, Eden." I love it!
Ezra made me a pig--what more is there to say? He knows I love this kind of quirky gift--especially from him! :)
Kaitlyn made a proclamation on FB, arranged some flowers and greenery, and made a card as well listing reasons she loves me. Here's an excerpt:
"And then the next I'm ashamed to say
Is that in almost every day
Whenever I fall or stub my toe
I scream real loud so you will know
The reason for this I'll tell you now
Is 'cause I get a kick out of the way you worry.
And when you cry, sweat, or weep for me
That just makes my whole day, seriously"
Ahhh--a masterful manipulation. Ain't love grand?
Sam gave me a hug which is my favorite gift right after a clean house and good kids.
From Levi I received a phone call which is my favorite absentee gift next to a video chat (which I hope to get from Mal, Michael, and Madie tomorrow--maybe from Jacob and Alexa too! Alexa called today, and posted on FB, but she's not getting off the hook until I hear her voice! That would be great.). I love what is happening in Levi's life right now and frankly, no other gift can compare. There's nothing like seeing your prayers for your children answered in their lives.
Casey and the kids worked together to make a wonderful meal and guess what? It was soooo delicious that I couldn't find anything wrong with it or even come up with any suggestions for improvement!!! Now you know that had to be good!!
I know the scriptures say that eternal life is the greatest of all the gifts of God, so mothers must be second, but whenever I do anything that is especially kind, friendly, helpful, active, faithful, thoughtful, loyal, dedicated, or a myriad of other wonderful ways to be, I think of my mother.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
However, I have not done everything I should have done today: I did not have scripture reading; did not make my bed; did not assign anyone to wash the dog and cat--or do dishes; forgot to invite my neighbors to Easter dinner (easy fix); did not exercise (but DID chow down on chocolate-covered almonds and raisins).
And tomorrow I go to Guam to be with my honey for a few days. :D
Friday, April 08, 2011
Thursday, April 07, 2011
Friday, March 18, 2011
Monday, March 14, 2011
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Been there, done that...and it was wonderful! We really enjoyed Rota and the place we stayed, The Coconut Village, was very charming and close to the water so we could easily hear the surf.
Rota's reef is very close to the island instead of forming a nice big lagoon like on Saipan, but it has it's advantages and the sound of the surf was only one of them.
Here's Casey looking all manly with the pink girly bike. On the way to Rota we realized that neither of us had reserved a car, but we weren't worried because...well...it was Rota. However, the 4 rental cars available on island were already taken and we were out of luck. No problem, we'll just take a...oops! No taxi service. Okay, we'll just call our hotel for an airport transfer. Hmmm...maybe something was lost in the translation, but for whatever reason they couldn't come to pick us up. Okay. Casey ended up just asking a guy if he would give us a lift into town and he was so nice and accommodating that he took us out of his way all the way to our hotel. Very nice, friendly guy. We invited him and his family to be our guests for dinner and he said yes, so we waited that evening until 30 minutes after the appointed time and then just ate. We know that here in the islands "yes" often means "no thank you", but we wanted to wait a bit just in case. Islanders generally don't like to come right out and say no.
Lucky for us the hotel had a nice little restaurant, The Hibiscus, at which we ate our meals. It was pretty good. Casey had a good seafood curry that first night--I had spicy pork something. But the real treat was the dessert--sour sop sorbet! It was delicious and refreshing! Yum! They said they just take sour sop and milk and sugar and ice and whirl it up in the blender. I'm definitely going to give that a try here at home! The next day after our sweaty adventure that's ALL we ordered to eat for lunch!
On Friday, we decided to take the two old single-speed bikes available at the hotel and head off to the Latte Stone Quarry and the Bird Sanctuary on the other side of the airport. Casey wanted to go by way of the main roads, but it had been quite a while since I've been bike riding and I didn't feel comfortable about how much control I had on it, so he sweetly agreed to go the back way which took us past the Swimming Hole again. I didn't think it would be any longer judging from the cartoon map we had, but he felt sure it was and he was right.
It was a fun trip--I loved it. Rota is lovely and quiet with very friendly people. It's one of those place where everyone waves whether they know you or not! I like that.
Casey admitted during our little stay on Rota that he had actually forgotten that he had intended to arrange this get-away as a Valentine gift to me. Hmmmm. That's okay--he made up for that on Guam. :)